☽ Journal ☾

Hello, i am back from Ragnarok and took a few days off from everything, i needed the rest, and i'm not done yet. Responsabilities are looming over me, the list goes on and on, but i'm tryint to take it one step at a time

I am in my living room in my apartment, my best friend is sleeping upstairs. I'm wearing a new perfume i bought, it's called "un chemin de vide et de lumière" or "a path of light". We have the cat here, we took her with us, and she's currently laying on the table by my side. I have a few good news i wanted to share

I got accepted for the entrance test for the art school. They took pity on me and validated my file even tho it wasn't complete. Living in my own apartment with my best friend has been a joy and i'm trying to walk outside more to discover the neighborhood and get some fresh air. I'm planning some dnd stuff, a short campaign of mine is coming soon and i'm very excited for it. Ragnarok went well this year. The last two times i didn't really get into it, one because i got out of the psychward three days before it, the second i was just doing like shit again and spent most of my time in my tent. This time the communication with the group didn't go great, but i tried my best to help and correct things before it started. During the event my goal was truly just to enjoy spending some time outside, take it easy, try to roleplay, and have fun camping with friends.

As a result i was mainly following people around, but i did have one interaction with a dude who remembered me for me, and greeted me very warmly. We almost started a war, we almost got excecuted, i got my weapin silvered and i'm breaking skulls with it, so it went well. Really, i came back from it feeling like i, of course, could have managed it better, but my goals have been achieved, and i had a nice time. I'll try to be a badass hero next year. Can't wait to see what we create with the group.

Hi. It's the beginning of the night and i am in the south of France. I came here for the Avignon theater festival, and i only got to see two spectacles for now. I'm leaving in two days, i'll try to see two more tomorrow, one of them doesn't really seem good but might be. I'm quite tired, and quite anxious, because i spent my whole day yesterday working on trying to register to art studies (or at least the entry test), and it was an extremely complicated process. I might have liked staying home to do that better.. honestly i thought it'd take less time and i'd have more time to enjoy things here. I did swim in the pool a little and it was very nice

I was very tired these last couple days, i think the warmth is one reason why, but i also forget to take my meds. I haven't had any other side effects for now so i'm chill. I still gotta try to take them on time from now on.

Today i saw a piece about an intersex person named Sarita Vincent Guillot. It was very interesting but honestly heartbreaking. I could relate to some of the story just by having been abused in different ways and being trans.

Soon i'm going to Ragnarok, a mass LARP event that i've been waiting for for a whole year now. It's the case every year. And at the same time these last two times i have also been very anxious about it. It's not exactly easy to get into character and forget about my life when i overthink all day every day. I'll try my best, i have friends and i'm under new(ish) medication that should help. I'm not optimistic, but i'm hopeful.

Hey. This is my first blog post on this website. Today has been a pretty decent day, but i can't say it's finished yet 'cause i tend to go to sleep at unholy hours, which means that i still have a bit of time in front of me. I just spent my day resting and coding. I have boxes to do because i'm moving in just a couple days, and i should get on with the eternally waiting paperwork.

The cat sat on my laps while i was working on my website. She's currently sleeping beside the bed on her pizza box.

I still have many projects for this website. It will come with other things too, because ideally i'd like to have my kofi working with it too, to add a newsletter and some montly subscription stuff. All of that will come very soon, as i have been waiting to get into my new apartment for many things, and it's finally coming.